Sunday, 19 October 2014


I'm not a big one for superstition, sans having to touch wood or salute to magpies, but if there's one thing I think I'm coming around to the idea of, it's karma. I don't know if any of you remember that show, My Name Is Earl? Well, like the beginning quote used to say; "You know the kind of guy that does nothing but bad things, and then wonders why his life sucks?" Yeah, I could relate.

Bad Things I've Done

I always knew, when I was a teenager, that I was shady at best. I always seemed to be doing something I shouldn't with someone I shouldn't be doing it with. When I got into Sixth Form I pretty much stopped going to school, or when I was there I was in the Common Room doing pretty much nothing at all, playing games on Not Doppler in the Maths I.T room or making crappy excuses up so I could leave early. I lied to my parents about where I was, which was nearly always where I shouldn't have been, and I was one of those girls that knew everything about everyone. I always had my ear to the ground, and I used it to my advantage as best I could; I always had something to say about someone, and the worst part was that I wasn't afraid of throwing myself under the bus to get someone else in trouble. Every single thing on the lists above is a true confession, if any make sense to an outsider, and honestly I could have filled pads and pads of post it notes with things I'd done that were pretty crappy. The thing is, though? Back then, my life was pretty crappy, too. I had "friends" I couldn't trust as far as I threw them, I was (unsurprisingly) completely failing school and whilst all my "friends" headed off to university? I ended up stuck here, with pretty poor A-Levels and so few true friends that I could count them on one hand.

Now, I'd like to think I'm a very different person these days (or I sincerely hope that I am). I try to see the best in people as much as I can, it's not easy at all, but if I can avoid gossip I will, and I certainly don't go out of my way to spread it. I try to be loyal, friendly, compassionate; and the way people treat me in my job has certainly made me consider the way that I treat others around me. This isn't a bad girl turned good story, this is me telling you why I believe in karma. At a fundamental level, Karma isn't some magic spell, nor is it a woman sitting on a cloud making sure you get your comeuppance. Karma is something far more basic, that our parents have been teaching us all these years; you'll be treated the same way that you treat others.

When I was a crappy person, my life was pretty crappy. I let myself down in school, I let the people that should have been my friends down, and I had to deal with the consequences and, actually, it was really hard. Now I'm a better person, I'm not going to say that life is amazing, but it's sure as hell better. I have better friends than I could ever have imagined, I've met some amazing people I sure hope I can call friends through blogging, my blog is doing really well, I've been in a solid job for two years, and it's down to nothing but basic human kindness and straight up hard work. So, when people do bad to you then you can rest assured that the crappier they act, the crappier their life is sure to be; it's basic science. But if your life isn't going your way? Maybe look at the way you're acting, karma works both ways.

Do you believe in karma?

Sammy xo

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