Tuesday, 6 January 2015

The Alleged Adult

There are people, so American films tell me, that peak in high school. I think I was probably one of them. I was a trouble maker, always giggling about some stupid plan or ploy, I was the queen of stupid jokes and I was renound for not giving even the tiniest of craps for the most part. Being a troublemaker was fun, until it wasn't. When my friends waved goodbye to our tiny, suffocating little peninsula - I settled down into work and had to become an "adult" a lot faster than I might have liked. You've heard all this before, though - it's old news. Some of you may already also know that I lost my job a little before Christmas and, as lovely as it is to permanently live in a set of Moomin pyjamas (I'm being dramatic, sometimes I get changed into Little Mermaid ones) and watch NowTV - I'm completely overwhelmed by the fact that I have no job, next to no money and absolutely no clue in the slightest what on earth I'm supposed to do in the future.

Adult Post It Notes

I've managed to put off being a real life adult for two and a half whole "gap" years now, but the older I get the more insistent the "so, what are you planning on doing with your life?" talks become. The truth is - I haven't got the faintest clue. I'm twenty one, I still sleep with a giant Toy Story soft toy - I am clearly not mature enough to correctly make adult decisions that are going to impact on my entire life. Honestly though, I'm okay with that. I want to inspire people, I want to write and draw, I want to get tattoos and make people think. I want to live a life that I'm proud of, I want to become a woman that is strong and passionate and I'm all too aware, it's going to take time.

I am constantly aware of my time running out - but I'm going to stop letting it get me down so much. Every day I spend with friends, every minute I spend laughing, or inspiring, drawing or writing? I'm going to count those as victories. I am worth more than my future job, I want to live an adult life I'm proud of and I'm sure that will involve a job I love in the near future, but right now? Being a person I'm proud of is every bit as important.

What's your dream job? How do you see your future panning out?

Sammy xo.

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