I feel like my life is probably based on a solid foundation of mistakes at this point - of times when somebody read into my message wrong, or times when I took wrong turns and found places that I've never been to before, or turned up late to events. I used to think that every good thing that happened has helped me along to where I am, but as life goes on I've started to think that maybe it's actually my mistakes that have put me here; slap bang in the middle of exactly where I'm supposed to be.
I used to fear mistakes and failure, when I started recovery I worried that they'd set me back a million miles; but the truth is? They did anything but. Every time I've fallen, it's only made me stronger and more resilient, only taught me lessons that proved invaluable in the long run, that helped me to become the woman that I have: independent, confident, curious and eager to keep learning things and moving on.
The truth is, there's just no way that I'm going to stop making mistakes - none of us are. Mistakes are just a part of life, a part of our growth process and of building our paths to keep travelling on to where we need to be. Making mistakes can be like taking a wrong turn in a city that you've never been in before; you won't be able to find your hotel, but you just might find a great pizza restaurant. I guess in a long winded way what I'm trying to say is that you might not get whatever you were looking for, but you might get something just as good, if not better.
I've learned that making a mistake and ending up somewhere different than you originally planned is much better than not moving anywhere at all. Mistakes never made me a lesser person, but each seperate one taught me something that turned out to be invaluable, that led me to be the woman that I am today. Without mistakes, I would be safe - but I would never grow. So, for that - I am thankful every day for the mistakes that I have made and will continue to make.