If there's one thing that I've learned in the last week or so, if it wasn't already clear, is that the fact that I'm a woman means that many men see my opinions as much lesser than their own. I can shout them down until I'm blue in the face, I can calmly and reasonably tell them genuine facts, I can literally sit replying to men who have come to attack me in my own mentions; but I'll still be the angry feminist. The fact that I'm a feminist has become this ugly trait to people who attack me; how dare I want equality? How dare I be angry about the way that the world is working out?
This week - I've been a feminist, and I've been angry. I've not been an angry feminist - I've believed in equality across genders as I always have, and I've been angry about the world around me. I've been angry that we are blaming victims, I've been angry that we are letting rapists walk free, I've been angry because we all deserve better. I've been angry, and I've been feminist - and these two things are not linked. You can write off my disgust at the failures of the criminal justice system this week as me being an angry feminist - but we all know that I'm not. We all know that I have a right to be angry, and you wouldn't be searching me out to specifically tell me otherwise, if I didn't.
As a feminist - I think I have a right to be angry. I am not angry because I'm a feminist, I am angry because everything I stand for is being discredited this week - I am angry because a man can stand in court and be declared not guilty when he gave a star witness £50,000 to discuss a victim's sex life, I am angry because we have torn apart a victim's sex life whilst never questioning the past of the accused; I am angry, so fucking angry, and it's nothing to do with my being feminist. It's everything to do with the fact that I think that any victim deserves better, it's everything to do with the fact that a criminal has walked free and people everywhere (mainly men, but not always) keep writing me off as an angry feminist instead of looking at the facts in front of them.
I am angry. I am angry that a girl is in a position I've been in and instead of giving her the help she needs, we are tearing apart her reputation and leaking her name online. I am angry. I am so, so angry that there is a man who has gotten free on a technicality despite the fact he has clearly interfered with a witness whether directly or not. I am angry. I am so fucking angry at the world around me - I am angry that we are rejoicing in calling a woman who is hurting a liar, and I am fucking angry that you think that I can only be mad because that victim is a woman - I would be angry if this was a man, I would be angry if this was someone of non-binary gender, I'm fucking angry.
So stop calling me an angry feminist - stop making it like I have no right to be angry, like my gender and my beliefs make my opinions invalid. And stop coming into my fucking mentions, starting fights and then quote tweeting me as an angry feminist, because that really does create an angry feminist ready to come back at you.