University has quite honestly been one of the hardest things that I've ever done. I feel like whilst all of my friends are out there drinking bazzalads (a fantastic concoction of lemonade, cherry sourz and vodka shots) and coming in at three in the morning, I feel as though I'm barely managing to keep my head above water for long enough to get through my degree. As naive as I am, I just didn't think that it would be quite this hard to get through University, I thought like I had done in school - I'd just breeze through with no real effort, but to be honest this has been a really tough wake up call.
Two months in, it's not really got any easier. I find myself in positions that I've never been in before, I'm constantly pushed to my limits when it comes to speaking publicly and meeting new people and, for the most part, I really am striving forward. That's not to say, however, that there aren't tears and tantrums a plenty on Monday mornings, or I'm not threatening to drop out every two hours on average - but it means that despite all of that, I'm really starting to push forward and get somewhere.
I sit in lectures and I don't know the definitions for half of the words that the people around me are using, and I don't know crime rates, or law dates, and I'm not as widely read as the people around me; but that's okay. I'm not always going to be the best of everything - I was privileged as a kid in that I was at the top of my school pretty much all the way until sixth form, but I'm getting used to knuckling down and putting the work in, I'm getting used to actually putting research in and making sure I'm actually learning and taking new things in like I should be.
So two months, an essay, an exercise, countless seminars and a good dose of lectures in and I can say - I'm managing, and I'm proud of myself. I'm getting there, and maybe this won't be my forever thing, but I'm learning enough about my subjects that if I decide I want it to be, I just might manage to make it there in the long run. So a huge thanks to everyone in the library for not judging me when I'm crying (sometimes over work, sometimes over Jane The Virgin), thanks for Katy for the burgers for lunches and the chocolate and the support and thanks to everyone who's spoken to me and made me remember that I'm pretty boss as humans go and I've definitely got this.
If you have any tips for us newbies at uni, I'd love to hear them!