Thursday, 16 November 2017

Hitting The Wall

It seems ironic that now I've sat down to write and found the time, I don't really know what to say. Posts after prolonged absences are always difficult, I don't want to feel as though I owe people a explanation and yet it always feel weird to spring right back in with five affordable things to do in whatever country we've travelled to most recently. You all know why I've been away though; I'm constantly complaining on Twitter about the sheer amount of work that I have to do; I take time consuming subjects, I work hard and actually do as many of those extra ten hours a week I'm supposed to do at home, and I also work a full time job - it's no joke.

Now I've found the time and I feel like I'm not really sure where to start. Blogging, at the moment, seems like that mate that you used to know in high school and sort of want to reach out to every now and again; but you don't really know how they'll react, or what you would even say, if you did. Whenever I've had a spare ten minutes I've spent it staring at an empty blogger screen and so I'm trying this 'pouring-out-all-my-weird-thoughts' posts, in the hope that I can put it out there, get over the fear of writing that first blog post and move the fuck on to something a little better than this mind dump.

I guess beyond not finding the time I just feel a little disillusioned with everything at the minute - I didn't expect to have to work quite this hard just to get by week to week; starting University with the purpose of actually hustling and getting that degree is a very different experience to starting University to put off life for a few years like I did last time. We're having to take time out of travelling, something that was a big part of both mine and Katy's lives prior to this, we've had to knuckle down - we work alternative shifts and sometimes don't see each other for more than an hour a day - I guess it's just not what we imagined.

This is a total mind dump but I hope it starts to explain why there'll be periods of time when I'm not around on here - and I'm not explaining it because I feel like I owe the posts, but more so that you all understand why on twitter I complain and cry and have roughly 2 meltdowns per academic day. Everything's a little hectic right now and I'm working on getting to a space where I'm one of those people who can juggle it all effectively without ever dropping a single ball; but until then? Blogging has to be the ball I leave on the floor in order to keep the other's up (has this juggling analogy gone on too far? I'll stop now)

Hopefully at least for a few days I'll be back here, but beyond that I'm not promising anything.

Sammy xo.

1 comment:

  1. Take as long as you want Sam, if there's something which is more important to concentrate on then your readers will understand. It's so hard when life gets in the way of spending time as a couple but just remember what you are doing at University is to benefit your life and if your not enjoying it then perhaps look at other options - not every job needs a degree :) xx

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